i couldn't be more sure that he was sent to me from god.
he's amazing. i was meant to have him.
i couldn't imagine doing anything else with my life, not ever.


i go to court may 12th, for custody and child support.
chris is threatening alot of things, and talking shit to so many people.
i got a motion sent to my house and there are so many lies
in it that it makes me sick. i can't believe him
i've been told he said he was going to stop doing drugs now until
the court date so that it comes up negative and makes me look
like an idiot... what he doesn't kno is that the court does
hair folical tests which from what i understand can pick
up any kind of drug you've done in the past year or so...
also he just got arrested in the past month, and is apparently
doing herione b/c its out of your system in 3 days.
and he's telling ppl he's going to try to get FULL custody.
he's such a stupid prick. hes such a fuckup. a low life.
if it wasn't for caelan, i would regret the day i ever met him.

i really wish i didnt have to go thru this. you think all this shit
would end, like i've been thru enough in the last year or so u kno?
but no. i made my bed so now i have to lay in it.
i just want to get through this. i want to fight to keep my
baby away from him, and protect him, and i just want
it all to be over. i just want some peace in my life.
is that so much to ask for???